ABSENTEE PARENTING

So it's 3:30am and I'm up writing this post because I am super irked by x's dad right now.  I've been dealing with a sick baby (another post on that later) and an absentee husband.  Why is he virtually MIA you ask?  Well let's not get it twisted, he's not really missing, but he does go out a lot and that leaves me to take care of X on my own; which is fine since I am his mom and that is what I signed up for when I chose to have him, but there comes a point when you just start feeling like...wtf do I look like?  A nanny?  I want to have a life too.  Are we back in the 50's where all the wife does is care for the kids while the husbands go out and play?  I can't remember the last time I went out without X.  Ohh wait...I can.  It was a few weeks ago.  I know...boohoo, I don't get to have a real social life anymore now that I have a baby.  I get it. I know how it sounds.  I guess there's just a lot of pent up frustration.

I'm a SAHM, and honestly, I love it because I love being able to be there for X all of the time.  To be able to be the first one to catch a major milestone is awesome.  I'm totally not complaining about that.  What does piss me off, are the assholes that think being a SAHM is easy, and the ignorant f**ks that say SAHM's don't contribute anything to the relationship because, financially, they aren't bringing anything in.  To them I say f**k you.  If you really thought this "job" was so easy, then you would be around more.  You would be spending more than an hour at a time with your kid.  There was an article or something somewhere where they calculated how much a SAHM would make if it were an actual paying job, and it's like over $200k/yr.  I get it. Being a mom isn't a job, I mean...I'm only on call 24/7. I get no real breaks, and I don't get paid.  If this were a real job I'd totally be able to sue my employer.  That's it X...I'm taking you to court!  J/k!  I signed up for this so I know what I was getting into.  That doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to complain about it every now and then...right?

Wow...I really didn't intend to make this post about being a SAHM.  I know how annoying it sounds to be complaining/venting about caring for your child.  I'm truly blessed to have X.  I don't take that for granted at all, my point is, everyone needs their own personal time. Without it we go a little cray cray.  I love you X.  I love spending time with you, but it would be nice if I could get like a few hours a week to just work on me and my own personal goals.  I really don't think that's too much to ask for.  Any way...it must be nice being a dad that's able to just go out whenever, for how ever long, and know that your kid is taken care of.  Yes.  I am part of the problem, and yes, this is not a forum for airing my grievances.  Give me a break guys.  It's now 4:00am and X's dad is on drunk friend duty, so yes, I feel like I get to be a little pissed off.  I totally know he's going to read this post an be like...wtf, but you know what? 😝. 

Okay...it's time for me to stop with the complaints and go to sleep.  I had a healthy dose of haterade today.  Also, typing this post on my phone is doing nothing positive for my vision.  Peace ✌